I call them my background processes.¶As metaphors go, it’s a rather straightforward one. Like the way a computer runs tasks that do not require the user’s interaction and that spin on their own, hidden from view, I have thoughts which move in secret, of their own initiative and on their own schedule. They claim resources—energy, time, emotion—but leave my immediate attention open for more superficial work. I don’t always know what result they’re working toward, but I always know when they’re activated. Learning to accept and accommodate them, however, has been a lengthy process.